My Roaring 2020 (I hope)

2020! This year I turn 20, I'll be in the swing of it with university. Hopefully, I'll be doing lots of things - I've got lots I want to do, achieve, accomplish and what better way to start the new year than with some good old goal setting.

I dunno if you can tell but I'm a sucker for New Year. With my birthday near the end of the year, being a millennial (which means my birthday corresponding with the year), and still being in education, I guess it all kind of adds up to one big shift in my life in a nice little package. I love taking the new year as a chance to reflect and review on where I am and where I want to be. I don't ascribe to the new year new me, or setting resolutions that you must attain or you are letting yourself down, but definitely setting goals and actively trying to look introspectively at just who I am and who I want to be. I'm really excited for this year. I'm quite superstitious with having a good New Year's eve (yet every new year without fail I have cried so this quite literally one big contradiction at myself). This year started literally quite rocky but I'm determined not to let that rock my boat. This year I want to finish a book. I say that every year but if I really focus on one idea rather than trying to juggle multiple projects. Maybe, I also need to stop holding myself back. I need to stop looking at past things I've done, made, tried to do and judge myself for it because I am my own critic. For example this blog, no one I know is reading this or going to - I'm essentially writing to myself which I am absolutely, utterly, completely, comfortable with, yet, the thought of someone I know finding this, reading this; my words, my thoughts, my emotions, connecting dots that I didn't sign up for. I am my own bully. I am an overthinker. I am heavily judgemental and I need to get a grip. They won't read this and if then do then great. They know but this is an open space for big mistakes, drafts, the good bits and the bad. This is where I can discover it all. Refine it all. I am trying and in 2020 my biggest goal for the year is to really not let things stand in my way and TRY.